"You must have an amazing life; great parents, superb grades, and nice friends. You must be really enjoying your life!"
I heard that a lot.... and I'm tired of it. My life is not that great. Well I'm still thankful with everything I have now, but it annoys me when I knew that others think that I'm fine, and they want to have my life.
Some people see me as a grown up girl with a very childish personality. Yes, I have to admit that I am childish. Sometimes I even think of myself as a little brat. ._.
But when my friends need me or my suggestion, i can give them my opinion just like an adult. Some even told me that I might be maturer than others which are older than me. If that happen, I always say that it's because I had overcome so many problems since I was little.
Family-matter
My parents always forced me to do my best in everything. I know that it's for my own good, but I have my limit. So, here's the situation: I have a sister, which it kinda way older than me. She's kinda troublesome ever since high school. Her grades are kinda poor, and her self-management is even worse. My parents are afraid that I'm going to turn out to be like her. That's why they always keeping their eyes on me, so that I won't make the same mistake like my sister did. Even when I was in high school, my parents never let me go out with my friends alone. They always tell me that I can't have a boyfriend cause it will ruin my grades, and so on.
Friend-matter
Most of the time, I feel like my friends are just coming to me when they need my help. Until high school, there are just some people that I consider as a true friend. Three people only, but I'm not intended to mention each of them. When I went to college, I started to feel like opening a new page of life. I didn't know anyone at that time, and everyone i met don't know me very well yet. "This will be my chance to find a true friend" that's what I thought at that time. Now, here I am....almost spent three and a half years here and I still don't know how true friend is like.. In my mind, a true friend is not only someone who accompanies you in every situation; a true friend is also someone who know you personally, inside and out, even better than yourself. I guess it's too much to ask? :)
Thankfully, I am now surrounded by so many awesome people :") well, they're still not qualified as my version of true friend yet, but they're so nice and caring that I don't even feel a slight of loneliness.
There are still so many things that I wanna write down here, but sadly my brain is already tired :))
So, i guess I'll continue at a later time :)
